PREGNANCY BLUES

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Just at the stage of looking a little chub while sitting down, but I’m not ashamed to share these!  I wouldn’t have shared these if I was pregnant with Oaks.  I feel much more comfortable in my skin then I did back then, but you learn as you grow and you learn with each pregnancy.

I wanted to share something that has been on my mind.  It was the beginning of my pregnancy that I didn’t experience with Oaks.  I’ve loved this pregnancy more, not because of the circumstances, but because I’m more comfortable and loving to my body, all while embracing everything that happens.  

It was about 6-8:9 weeks that I started feeling this way and that is whats called the pregnancy blues, I hadn’t even heard of this before and it was so foreign to me what I was feeling because I didn’t feel that way with Oaks.  I get the baby blues, after the baby is born which I talked about in that post.   I wanted to share this because I wanted to bring awareness to it and remind those who are feeling this way knowing that it ends and completely normal.

So about 2-3 weeks I felt very depressed.  I was so excited I was pregnant, but for some reason I was just down all the time.  I wanted to cry for no reason.  I couldn’t pin point why, or how I was feeling this way when it’s such a happy time in your life.  I would have moments of feeling so physically exhausted that I would need to go lay down for a while, to the point where even talking was exhausting to me, or even thinking about anything overwhelmed me to the core.   

I was getting so frustrated that I was feeling this way. I thought that maybe it’d last the whole first trimester, and what was even worse, not a lot of people knew I was pregnant, so I just kinda felt alone.  I had to have TJ take over the moment he got home, and would go lock myself in my bedroom.  You never saw this on my Instagram, and I’m sure you thought everything was just fine, because I was only showing my good moments, but I had a lot of bad moments.  I didn’t want to go anywhere, or talk to anyone.  I’m not the type of person to complain, or want to talk about how I’m feeling.  I just think to myself, you will get over it, it’ll pass, so just tough it out.  But don’t do that… talk to your mom, your close friend, your sister about how you’re feeling, or even reach out to me!  I’m always here to chat.   I finally did after a week of feeling like that, and my close friend Megan told me there was someone she followed that was feeling this way too.  She showed me her post and I felt so much better.  So thats another huge reason why I’m sharing how I was feeling because it really does help when you know you aren’t alone.

We’re never alone.  We all go through hard patches and rough moments. Life isn’t picture perfect even though instagram will show you that it is.   So just know you aren’t ever alone and no one has a perfect life.   So when you’re ready, talk to someone who you trust and let it out.  It truly does take a burden off and makes you feel better.

 But I woke up one day and just didn’t feel that anymore.  It never came back and still hasn’t so it went away!  Now I’m here at 20 weeks, no more morning sickness, got my energy back and just feel so much better.  I’m working out again everyday and physically feel good.  I love this pregnancy and am embracing it all because who knows, this could be my last.  My husband has 2 kids and then we have 1 together, so he’s kinda done ha.   

So with all that said, love yourself, give yourself self love, make your self care a first priority!  Rest when you need, pamper yourself when you need.  Don’t feel bad about taking a time out, or being a little selfish from time to time, because listen, putting yourself, well being and health at the top of your list, will make you a better person, therefore you’re a more patient mom, wife, friend sister etc… LOVE YOURSELF.

LOVE YOU GUYS! xoxox

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ROBE / BLANKET HERE & HERE / OAKS OUTFIT / SOCKS HERE & HERE

Have a great day!

xoxo,

SARA LYNN

MOM GUILT MOMENT

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20 (1)BALANCING WORK/MOM LIFE IS NO JOKE.  This post is going to be super raw and real.  This year I’m going to do my best at sharing all the real stuff with you.  It goes SO beyond what you guys are seeing.  I’m very open with you all, but of course I’m not going to share everything.  

BALANCING WORK LIFE/ MOM LIFE IS THE MOST CHALLENGING THING I’VE EVER DONE.  TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS I JUST FEEL LIKE I’M NOT BEING A PRESENT MOM.  Some days I feel like I’ve got it all handled aka super mom.   YES I TIME BLOCK, which has been so helpful, and yes it’s very efficient way to get it done, but some days come crashing down on me.  Those are the days when Oaks need me the most, then I have deadlines and I’m all stressed out.  It’s just very hard to do both.  Being a mom is a lot of work. It’s a full time job.   You all know this!

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IT HURTS.  Today, is just one of those days I feel extremely overwhelmed and I feel like I’m not there for him, or being present enough.   

I WANT TO DO BOTH.  Thats the thing, I’m very very grateful for everything I have.  I love what I do so much, but I love being a mom more of course.  I’ve found ways to do both, but like I said, it’s one of those days!  Mom guilt is a real thing.  We can be supermom all week long, and then when it comes time to leave them overnight for a girls night, or leave them even longer, you feel like a bad mom.  Then you start to get anxiety of something bad happening to them while you’re gone.  My lord, talk about HEAD TRIP.  Do you guys feel me?  

BEING A MOM IS A HEAD TRIP.   RIGHT??   None of us know what the hell we’re doing. We think we do, and then some other problem arrises and your basically back to square one.    We’re all just doing the best we know how, and learn how along this motherhood journey/crazy ride.  As Oaks grows older the more fun it keeps getting, but at the same time… it gets a little more challenging.  As he learns, grows and starts to understand things more.   Understanding they love sugar, but you have to teach them that it isn’t good for you all the time, and then they get upset and throw tantrums… I mean the list goes on and on.   Don’t hit people, don’t throw that cup full of water, don’t flush toys down the toilet etc, etc, etc…!

Maybe all those things are boys things too.  Every child is different! SO PS NEVER JUDGE A MOM.  Anyways, what I wanted this to be about is sharing my story, and the hard things that go through my head everyday.  I know you guys feel me and I want you to know that it goes so beyond just pretty pictures.  Oaks is shitting his pants daily, I’ve got shit on my hands, he throws everything in our house,  I’m in my work out/sweats most days, (sometimes they might have crusty oatmeal on them.. you never know), no make up, and running around trying to keep things clean (I put that on myself because I’m a clean freak), cook dinner, get my work done, all while trying to be there and watch Oaks grow up.  MAN.  SHITS HARD, but my hell don’t we love them so much?  I cry all the time because the love I feel hurts so much.  

Being a mom IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.  It’s helped me find my purpose in life, it’s taught me so many life lessons, patience, time management, being a good wife, cooking/experimenting yummy healthy meals etc.   I love sharing it all with you, and being there for you too.  The community that we’ve all created here is incredible!

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TOPSHOP JEANS I LOVE- HERE, HERE, HERE, HERE

MY TANK / PLAID BUTTON UP / BOOTS 

OAKS CLOTHES- ALL ZARA

Love you all!  Have a good day!

xox,

SARA LYNN